This girl was a black girl and beautiful. She was very cool. Wish I could meet black girls like that that aren’t ghetto. Amazing!
So I just got back back from a strip club. I know the girls are after money, but I met a cool chick. Yes, she took my money but I didn’t feel used and I actually had fun talking to her.
Tired of being single, at least tired of being alone. Damn sure tired of being a retard with this shit.
I’ve been thinking a lot here recently about what I need to work on in my life to improve my situation and my quality of life. FEAR is the game. I let fear control me too much. Fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of disappointing others, fear of being alone. Now that I sit back and think about it, fear is stupid. It’s an excuse. We are all going to fail, be rejected, be alone, and disappoint others. How can I overcome this. It’s so bad that it affects my confidence. I can’t be confident because I let fear guide my decisions. Every day when I wake up I have toile a decision. Am I going to be my best or my worst? Some days it’s like I don’t have a choice. I guess I’ll just take it day by day. I have to overcome this, I have to develop that confidence.
I’m thinking life sucks. I’m having a hard time getting layed. I can’t even hook up with known sluts. FML